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Monday, 23 April 2007

  • Marriage is Overrated.

    I do not want to marry.  Now, I know what you're thinking: "Whoa, you're insane; marriage is a gift from God and you ought to look forward to it."  or "Right on, man; fight that outdated idea of limiting in love."  Whichever camp you are sitting in roasting marshmallows, keep reading; you may come to agree with me.

    As I said, I do NOT want to marry... anytime soon that is.  I am not looking for a wife.  I am thoroughly exhausted with people telling me that I should be looking for a wife when I date.  For Christ's sake, I have no intention of marrying in the next five years (possibly more).  I am neither financially secure nor mature enough for such a calling.  Personally and alternately, I am in the process of finding someone to LOVE.

    All too often nowadays we think of love as grounds for marriage.  We assume that, if two people love each other enough, that will be enough to hold the marriage together when the tempest of misfortune blows in.  Well, bringing marriage into the picture--speaking/acting as if one were going to marry the woman he is dating--can potentially ruin an otherwise wonderful, loving relationship.  I would be doing the woman I date a terrible disservice if I were to go into a dating relationship implying that I am looking for a wife when, in all probability, we won't be together after a year or two.  It could be equally harsh of me to enter such a relationship with the purpose of finding a spouse rather than enjoying the moments we have together and being present in my interest in and love for her.  Would it not be better to get to know her as a fascinating woman who benefits from my attention and love and as someone who has worth aside from wifehood?  If I realize she's my soulmate, THEN we'll worry about marriage.  For those of you who do not believe in soulmates, that's too bad. 

    Buona notte, amici!

Monday, 16 April 2007

  • Currently Reading
    Mars and Venus on a Date: A Guide for Navigating the 5 Stages of Dating to Create a Loving & Lasting Relationship
    By John Gray
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    Re-Cap

    I want to post, but I do not quite have time to form and compose anything at all lofty, so I think I'll leave you with something I wrote last semester.  I hope you enjoy:
     
    Sunday, November 19, 2006

    "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is admirable, whatever is lovely--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things." (Philippians 4:8, NIV)

    I've been thinking a lot lately... my mind is rarely at rest.  This makes for some interesting ideas, as well as some oddly pleasant dreams.  This is the problem, however.  My mind is never is always processing.  Often, it processes things that it shouldn't.  I cannot focus.  I cannot concentrate to save my life.  Consequently, my studying has suffered, as has my reading (in general).  I am not motivated to do my homework.  To make matters worse, of my own accord, I only took five and a half hours of sleep last night.

    I am realizing that there is only one solution (in multiple parts however): THOUGHTS.   I must change the pattern of mine.  First, I must sleep a decent amount (eight hours, preferably).  Second, I must do devotions once a day, if not more.  And third, I must begin to insert ideas and thoughts that conform to the above scripture and must meditate on their truth.  These include: beautiful words ("tranquility"), picturesque scenery, lofty lines of poetry (the Canticle of the Sun), profound quotes ("With every moment of misery there's a moment of magic..."), insightful scripture verses (see above) and patient prayers.

    Why focus on something grotesque?  Why think about something sinful or shameful?  Why not think about things that would give us life, were our thoughts to dwell upon them?  Why do we, so often, fill our heads with filth, and then wonder why life isn't fulfilling, satisfying, or fruitful?  How long will we hold on to "everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles" (Hebrews 12:1)?  As is so often the case, I don't have the answer.  But, for those of you who had the courtesy to read this, I leave you with this thought:

    "So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of your sinful nature." (Galatians 5:16)

Monday, 02 April 2007

Monday, 26 March 2007

  • Currently Reading
    Mars and Venus on a Date: A Guide for Navigating the 5 Stages of Dating to Create a Loving & Lasting Relationship
    By John Gray
    see related

    Retrospection

    Recently, I have been realizing how important it can be for us to look back at our lives:

    It is odd to think that (unless I'm mistaken) we as a culture--the West mainly--have lost virtually all sense of the place from which we've come.  How can a tower stand without a strong, deep foundation?  Then, how can a person stand without a similar foundation, consisting of their family and cultural history, an understanding of the roots of their ideas, etc.?  I think we as a people, unless we learn to slow down, take a deep breath--maybe we'll have clean air then--and take a look around and back at where we've been, we're headed for a major disaster.

     I have been feeling very out-of-sorts lately, and am realizing that I cannot well-remember what I did two weeks ago.  In the past (like high school) I could remember what I ate for lunch three days ago (actually, three days ago, I had a sandwich... I think).  I read one or two little things I had written not long ago and felt my spirit shiver.  Yes, something inside me began to awaken and I felt more real.  Don't ask me to explain it further; these feelings are virtually indescribable.  I remembered how I had felt while writing it and what situation prompted its writing.

    I am finding that I have been neglecting one of the tasks at which I was best: intro- and retrospection... i.e. pondering.  I spend all my spare time at the Wesley, doing nothing in particular--often, nothing at all.  I have wasted many hours this semester in a public place for the reason that I am afraid to be alone.  I crave human interaction and affection, but have lost the ability to retreat from community and recouperate in the best place that I've found for myself.

    Maybe in the next few weeks, I'll re-learn the ability to ponder and recapture my heart.

Sunday, 11 March 2007

  • ???

    So, the DEO Date Auction was tonight... Well, let's start a little further back... Friday, a friend with whom I was going to eat Rusty's had to work (bummer... that's life...)... I went to Newkirk and saw "300" after learning about assets and liabilities (don't ask)... "300" was okay; being literalist (?) that I am, I like things the way they actually were; while the cinematography was great, the acting was okay, and the dram was intense, I was disappointed, but that's to be expected (the movie like the graphic novel is terribly untrue to the actual historical events as well as many of the ideologies that accompanied them)... *shrug*

    But, enough of me complaining; the Date Auction... Success!  The total is $1881!!!  Crazy, huh?  What's crazier than the amount we raised (aside from our costumes/characters... whoa) is the fact that I was on the verge of tears immediately afterward and I have no idea why... Am I under considerable stress of which I am unaware?  Or is it something else (like lack of sleep)?  Well, at least my heart is returning...

    Anyway, that's the update for now (pretty boring, huh?  that's my life...).

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